So last night I watched the finale of the Bachelor.
I identified with something the winner said.
Do I believe in this process? No, I don't.
Simply look at the lack of successes the show has generated. Heck, one they now tout was actually the girl he didn't choose but rather left the winner for after the show and subsequently married.
I do find this to be mildly entertaining on Monday nights when there isn't much else to choose from.
But I was surprised to find myself not liking Emily during After the Final Rose. And its not that I didn't necessarily like her, its more that she seemed so much colder.
I get what she was saying.
If he did fall for her she shouldn't have had to see him say many of the same things to the other girls. I get that. I truly believe that.
I like that she recognizes that they fell in love in extraordinary circumstances and wants to take time to figure out if they can sustain under the day to day pressures of life.
That could be one of the most mature comments ever made on the show.
But the warm southern belle with manners spun in gold seemed so frozen.
I think it bothered me because I saw myself.
I saw the defensive walls. The protectiveness. The "I'm going to push you away so that you can't push me first" mentality.
Should I ever truly start this dating process again it is something to be cognizant of as I navigate the waters.