Tuesday, August 24, 2010

And Then

I gave the almost 24 year old, aka puppy, my number. The second I sent the email I got a message from B.

The puppy has text several times. I'm doing my best to not get overwhelmed. Take it in stride. Keep my mind open.

Monday, August 23, 2010

What Would You Do?

I'm 29 and knocking on 30's door.

The boy asking for the date isn't quite 24.

I finished my undergrad 8 years ago.
I finished my masters 5 years ago.

He's in his last semester of undergrad.

I've been married and divorced.
Bought and sold one house.
Bought and unfortunately unable to sell another.

He's done none of these things.

Is age enough of a reason to say no? Or do I go because there really isn't another reason not too?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

More Books

Fly Away Home: A NovelFly Away Home: A Novel by Jennifer Weiner

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I liked this book but overall its probably the book I have liked the least written by this author. The ending left me underwhelmed. I felt cheated. There was so much left to say. All the story built, I was invested and in the end...disappointed.

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How to Make Love Like a Porn Star: A Cautionary TaleHow to Make Love Like a Porn Star: A Cautionary Tale by Jenna Jameson

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I think I liked this book so much because no matter how crazy or out of hand I feel like my life has become...I can read this and be reminded how ridiculously wholesome it really is.

The amount of drug abuse, self doubt, family turmoil and just flat out bizarre antics that make up the life of Jenna Jameson, largely before age 21, is nothing short of extraordinary.

I was hooked on the book from the start similar to the addiction that gripped Jenna for a large segment of her life.

Proceed with caution, the book is graphic and filled with pictures. Not recommended for plane reading!

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Saturday, August 7, 2010

Book Review: Heart of the Matter by Emily Giffin

Heart of the MatterHeart of the Matter by Emily Giffin

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I started off hating this book. Hating it. Barely being able to turn the page.

Then something shifted and I couldn't stop reading. Identifying with all of the characters. Willing the story to move faster so that I could find out the resolution.

I don't know if I understand the ending or if its just that it didn't work out that way for me. But this passage stood out the most in the book. To the point I read it several times.

"His point, I think, is that even good guys cans cheat...But it only happens if they're in the wrong relationship - and only for the right person. And because you and Nick have a great relationship, you really have nothing to worry about."

Dex nods and says, "It might sound like an excuse...a justification. But I think it happens to people. But not if they're happy. Not if their relationship is where it should be."

That is truth. The truth is that however spineless and horrendous my husbands actions were...had things of been great, they wouldn't have happened. The problem wasn't just that he couldn't keep it in his pants; its that, as I now realize, we weren't meant to be.

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Friday, August 6, 2010

Julie. Julia. StartingOver@28

I watched Julie & Julia tonight. My motivation was simple.

Its Friday. I do nothing on Friday's.

The movie is about a blog. I have a blog.

So I watched and I was frustrated.

The first instance occurred when Julia Child's husband told the story of knowing he was in love with her. Something flashed across her face and I instantly thought that story wasn't theirs. That he was telling the story of him with someone else. But this apparently misguided feeling never panned out. So why am I always so pessimistic? Am I always going to think that things can't possibly end well? That no couple can ever truly be happy?

The second instance was in watching Julie put her husband on the back burner. I don't know why it seems that movies never portray a woman who can balance. Perhaps the film didn't portray her that way because she in fact could not balance her relationship and the blog in her life. But that too frustrated me.

Julie's blog seemed to have such a profound effect on her life. Why is it that I write this? It makes me feel better, yes. It has been rather cathartic through the last 18 months. But is it relevant? Does it really matter? Am I ever going to figure out what I am going to be when I grow up?

I love being home. I love that I am starting over in a new place. But yet I feel like I am stuck in quicksand. So close to being out and yet stuck.

I know some of it will come with time. Like when the house with MX sells. I just wish I knew when that was. I wish I wasn't waiting for something to happen. Still. 18 months later.

My brother in law joked that the next time I buy furniture that needs assembled I better have a boyfriend. I know he meant it in jest. But even though 99% of the time I am fine being alone, that 1% of the time, when I have to ask him for help...I wish for that too.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Gone But Not Forgotten

A myriad of excuses is the only explanation I can explain for my recent absence from the blogosphere. But really, I hate excuses.

Yes, life got busy, it got hectic. But, um. It does that for everyone. The fact that it did it for me...not special. Or acceptable.

We make time in our lives for the things that matter.

This blog matters.

I promise.

I sometimes forget that people read this thing. I don't understand why anyone would find it remotely interesting. Then last night a friend remarked that I hadn't updated. And I remembered. Sometimes people do read it.

So in my absence I have been busy. I have been to two more concerts. Mr. Ted Nugent and Lady Gaga. I am not sure which provided more entertainment from a people watching perspective, albeit for different reasons, but both were worth the money spent on admission.

I have unpacked, organized, purged, acquired and still find myself being anything but settled. But one thing I can promise. Working from home...rocks. Love it.

My new employer. Amazing. I am going to love the job.

Challenging? Yes.

Hard to explain? Definitely.

Flexible, empowering and dynamic? For sure.

I've crossed two more items off the list.

I ran my 3rd 5k. Well, run being an operative term. My sisters asthma wasn't feeling it in the humidity so I stayed with her and we walked our fair share. So why am I now considering a half Marathon in Vegas?

And that pesky #11. The one thing on the list I thought would never get crossed off. Yeah, I crossed that one off too.

I also read a few more books... reviews below.

Sweet Little Lies (L.A. Candy, #2)Sweet Little Lies by Lauren Conrad

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Totally cheesy but a great easy chic lit read. Especially for Hills fans. If you are like me you spend the majority of the book trying to figure out who is which real life person and what storyline/tabloid article is being alluded to.

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Pretty in Plaid: A Life, a Witch, and a Wardrobe, or, the Wonder Years Before the Condescending, Egomanical, Self-Centered Smart-Ass PhasePretty in Plaid: A Life, a Witch, and a Wardrobe, or, the Wonder Years Before the Condescending, Egomanical, Self-Centered Smart-Ass Phase by Jen Lancaster

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I am not sure there are many authors out there more talented than Jen Lancaster. She is purely hilarious. She writes in a way that I can only aspire to.

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The Last SongThe Last Song by Nicholas Sparks

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I wanted to hate this book. I wanted to hate it because Perez Hilton says Miley Cyrus is annoying and for whatever reason...I believe him. I wanted to hate the book because Disney asked Nicholas Sparks to write the screenplay/book as a starring vehicle for Miley.

But I loved it. I read the book in 2 days and once I have a free moment I am tracking down the DVD and watching it. Even with the girl I am supposed to hate as the lead character.

Wait, why is it that I hate her?

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