Thursday, July 28, 2011


MX is getting married.

This weekend.

When I will be in the same city.

And I don't care.

It's weird.

I keep waiting to care but I just don't.

Suma-Suma-Summer Time

Summer is over.

It's a fact.

Once 4th of July rolls around you may as well breakout your North Face because Old Man Winter is  just around the corner.

Sorry, that may be a little dramatic.

But I am trying to take TresSugar's advice and embrace the summer that I have. Trying.

6 Reasons to Embrace Single Life This Summer

•It's all about you. Summer is a time marked by great transition and the possibility to meet people. Find yourself! See what you like, dismiss what you don't, and spend some quality time with yourself.

•Your cell phone isn't in charge. Part of me adores my cell phone and the other part wants to chuck it out my eighth floor window. Your days — and nights — are your own! There's no need to check in or be attached to your phone waiting to check in with your significant other. Your life is your own. And that's pretty empowering.

•Traveling solo. You can go anywhere you want, ask for directions when you want, and check out the sights that interest you. The process can be a little overwhelming, but once you embrace the fact that you can get around on your own, there's nothing more uplifting for your confidence.

•Music festival freedom. Music festival romances are magic. If you've been on one of these adventures, you know what I'm talking about. You're entranced in the music. You're feeling open and welcoming. And out of nowhere on your right appears the most gorgeous guy you've ever seen who lives across the country. Welcome to your next three days.

•Butterflies in your belly. That feeling is totally indescribable. And you can have it as much as you want! There's nothing like meeting someone for the first time.

•Girls-only grilling. No more domineering males to take over the grill. Grab your girlfriends together for a day full of sunshine, booze, and BBQ. On second thought, maybe the BBQ should come before the boozing.

•The end of wedding season. Line up those groomsmen and take your pick. Who says the rules of Wedding Crashers apply just for dudes?

Sunday, July 24, 2011

If It Is What He Wants...

According to the August issue of Cosmopolitan magazine Justin Timerblake says "The Sexy Confidence Guys Love" involves the following:

  • Don't Give a Damn. Uh...I have this mastered. In fact, my friends say this makes me unapproachable but JT says desirable...
  • Tell an X-rated joke. I've got this mastered and the dirty mouth to boot. I consider this a personal weakness but again...if JT loves it...
  • Know your style. In my late 20's and now early 30's I think I am finally finding my way with this one. I am not a fashionista but you won't find me on a worst dressed list either.
  • Try Anything Once. Aside from certain foods - game on.
  • Let Him Do All The Work. As much as I enjoy taking control I love it more when its the guy who knows what he wants and goes for it.
  • Own Your Emotions. Ha. Check.
  • Be a Babe Among Boys. I am a guys girl personified.
  • Call Him Out. Again, check.
So, my question today -

If the above is what JT wants anybody want to hook me up?

But maybe what I should be asking is -

If the above is true...why do I have zero luck in the dating world?

Thursday, July 21, 2011


Why don't things work out for you two?
Why don't you walk away?
That question I can answer.
Texts at 5:43 a.m. telling me to have a good flight (at 6 a.m.) make it impossible.
For me.
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A Miss

Over the 4th I had a fabulous weekend.

It was reminiscent of the first weekend I spent at this lake. The weekend that brought me B.

He's still there by the way. I don't know that anyone expected that he wouldn't.

In 3 days I was on 3 different boats.

Day 1 the Roy boat.
Day 2 the J boat.
Day 3 the G boat.

Roy & J tie up together.

On Day 2 the Roy boat had a boy on it I had never met.

We shall call him Farmer.

Farmer introduced himself to me.

Day goes on.

Farmer asks what my story is.

I ask what he means.

Single? Boyfriend? Love of your life?

I laugh and say no, just simply single.

We chat.

He gets called away.

The J boat has to go home.

That evening a girl from the Roy boat mentions that I should date Farmer. She says we are the same age, both single and she thinks we would get along well.

Later as the outdoor bar is closing and I am headed to bed I see Farmer again. He gets a big smile on his face and says hi to me. But we are headed in opposite directions.

No worries I think. I will surely run into him tomorrow. But the G boat doesn't tie up with the Roy or the J. 

Oh there is always FB, I will friend him.

But he is not on FB.

So I suppose, if its meant to be I will run into him with the Roy boat crew once again.

Monday, July 11, 2011


At 18 I graduated high school and entered college as a sophomore.
At 21 I graduated with a Bachelor of Science in Business Administration with a concentration in Marketing and started my first sales job.
At 22 I received my first professional promotion.
At 23 I was engaged and purchased my first home.
At 24 I received my Masters in Business Administration and was married.
At 25 I purchased my second home.
At 26 I became a sales manager responsible for the development of various sales peoples careers and an annual business plan that meant hundreds of millions of dollars of revenue.
At 27 I thought I had the most perfect, well established life.
At 28 I discovered my husband had an affair and we divorced.
At 29 I moved back to my home area while simultaneously advancing my career and purchased my 3rd and likely forever home.

Do you see why at 30 I wonder if I have anything left to do in life?

Or is this it?

Have I achieved all that I have to achieve? Am I on the downward slope?

I'm not complaining. I've had a pretty cool life and with that some pretty crappy happenings. But that is what makes it life. Not a fairy tale.

But tonight I wonder what is next?