Minor Vent

I hate when you get used to something being a certain way and then when it changes, just ever so slightly it annoys you. Or you wonder what is wrong. When in truth you know, deep down, you are overreacting, over analyzing and just need to chill the f out.

So why am I being such a girl?

Because there is a part of me that knows that something occurred, that it just isn't ready to be shared and because of that...its not its being withheld.

So please just tell me already. You already alluded about going in circles. Just out with it already.

Updates

Not sure why I have fallen off the blogging wagon lately.

Am I distracted? A bit.

Do I have a million things I am trying to figure out? Yes.

Am I am afraid that I can't get things to work logistically the way I want/need them to? Yes.

Do I think this has me frozen?

Um, yeah. To say the least.

Just Need, Darn It Do It

Despite overwhelming feedback I just haven't done it yet. I can't seem to bring myself to unfriend.

I don't know why. These people mean next to nothing to me.

Today I saw something that actually made my stomach do flips. It wasn't pictures, they don't bother me.

It was a mutual friend combining her last name with his. That has MX written all over it.

He always does it.

The fantasy football team we had for years...it was a combo of my his first name and my last. Prior to that it was his first name with his college girlfriends first name combined together...now its her last name combined with his last name.

I admit it. It made me nauseous.

For a second.

And then I remembered that I deserve better. That he threw us away and she can have, what I am sure she believes is original, a cheesy nickname.

The Alarm

Alarm goes off. I think "time to get up and workout."

But what I do is roll over and go back to sleep.

Workout fail.

Working Out

I have fallen off the workout wagon in a major way. Major.

I was dedicated, fell off, got back on and have now found myself majorly sidelined.

So today I bought myself new workout pants. Why would someone who isn't working out buy new workout pants? Because I hope it motivates me to get off my tush and back to working out!

I also hope it means that I find a nice used treadmill soon so that I can run in the winter!

Needs

I need:

• the house to sell
• the wait to be over
• the drama to go away

Should I Un-Friend?

FB is an interesting place. Its there that I routinely see pictures of MX with her. Pictures posted by our friends that are now their friends.

Pictures of him doing things with her that he never would have done with me and claimed to not enjoy.

So it has me thinking...

As I continue to do things to separate my life now from MX, is it time to un-friend the former couple friends? They are, for all intents and purposes, his friends. I haven't heard anything from any of them. I am not sure if we would speak if I ran into them. I don't know what they have been told.

Do I do it? Or do I leave the connection available?

There really should be a divorce handbook on these things!