What do you do each day that doesn't contribute to your writing -- and can you eliminate it?
I've never thought of this place as "my writing." It was just this blog. This thing that I did when I couldn't verbalize the feelings or the pain when MX left.
Over time it has developed into something bigger. Some days it is trivial and meaningless. Some days I hope I inspire someone to keep moving forward, show them that they are not alone, let them know there is hope.
But the one thing I do everyday that does not contribute to my writing...fear judgement.
Over time I have lost my anonymity with the blog. More personal friends and family know about it and at times I don't put everything out there because I fear what they may think. Fear their judgement or that they will interject themselves into a situation.
Not out of spite. Simply out of love.
No malice intended.
There are things I don't talk about, details not given.
Out of fear.
I could stop caring. I could write it all.
I could stop writing. I could let the fear cripple me. Stifle the writing process entirely.
But I won't. I will try to let down my guard and be as open and honest as possible. Let go of the fear of being judged.
Write it all because I am who I am and I cannot apologize for the decisions, right or wrong, that I have made.
They make me uniquely me.