Wisdom

Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?

Admittedly I do not always make the best decisions.

Actually, I do. Generally the first decision I make is the right one but for whatever reason I tend to go back on that gut feeling and proceed in the opposite direction. Why? I have no idea. But its what I do.

I did this with MX.

My initial gut feeling after finding out about the affair was to walk away. But then I decided I wanted to stay and fight. Looking back he was already gone. He had left a long time ago and had I of stuck to my guns and walked away when I found out I would have saved myself a lot of additional heartache.

But I didn't.

I've done this with B. More times than I can count. But that story isn't quite over yet, simply redefined.

But the single wisest decision I have made was one that was decided in 2009 and enacted in 2010.

It was the decision to come home.

When we moved to KC in 1993 I didn't want to go. I had to go because my mom was moving to be closer to her brother after her divorce. I remember that year that IA was named the 3rd best place to raise a family...MO was named 47th. I was livid.

It was never home. I made great friends. But it was never home.

I always said that I lived in KC but I was from IA. Because it wasn't home.

After I found out above the affair the first thing I told my sister was that I was coming home. I started spending most of my weekends back there. It just felt right.

It took a long time to find a job that would allow me to live in the state I loved. But finally, finally, I was recruited for a position that allowed me to live and work from home. It requires me to travel, which I love, and I got to stay in the industry I have grown to love over the past 6 years.

I've been able to get involved. Reconnect with old friends, make new.

It is simply the best decision I could make, for me.

I am home.