I hate that a few interactions with MX immediately reverts me into this pathetic whiny person.
The person that wonders if this is all I have to expect from life in the future? Am I always going to be alone from here on out? Am I forever going to be "tagalong?" The one that either takes solo vacations or is the 3rd/5th/7th wheel on others trips?
Is that my life?
Or do I go and do the things I want?
Next summer, should I buy my own boat so I don't have to worry that someone will offer to take me on theirs?
Buying the horse is a no brainer, it will be mine.
But will that level of independence scare potentials off?
Do I care if it does?
The truth is that it doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I am happy and the only one that can make me happy is...ME.