When?

I wonder when about a lot of things.

I wonder when:

• I am going to feel whole again.
• I will get through a day without crying.
• I will ever stop loving you.
• I can start hating you so that I can just stop wishing you would come home.
• I am going to stop hating myself for not knowing you were unhappy.
• I am going to stop regretting the fact that I accepted "work stress" as your reason for being distant.
• I am going to stop wanting children. Children I never knew I would want until we were at a breaking point.
• I am going to stop wondering why I am not enough for you anymore.
• I can tell people we are getting divorced without crying.
• I can answer a simple question like "How are you doing?" without crying.
• I can stop being afraid to go out in public because I might see you or her or you with her.
• I will stop missing you.
• I will stop hoping we are one of those divorced and reunited stories.