Sunday, April 19, 2009

What I Hate About the End of My Marriage

  1. I have lost my best friend
  2. I had an amazing wedding to the man that I was to spend the rest of my life with and now I am a statistic
  3. My trip down the aisle was a waste
  4. I have lost my best friend
  5. I was willing to completely change what I wanted in life to make someone else happy and and that still wasn't enough for him
  6. The person I love more than anything isn't who I thought they were. He is a stranger now and I don't recognize who he has become
  7. I don't fail. I have never failed, until now...
  8. I have lost my best friend
  9. That every dream I have had for my future no longer exists
  10. That my ring finger seems to have a ghost sitting where my rings used to
  11. That I don't understand why others get to have the happy marriage I was supposed to have
  12. That I had 3 beautiful nephews, that I was godmother to two of them and now I have nothing


  1. I just started reading you blog, I linked to it from another. I have only read the first three entires so I have no idea where you are now in the healing process until I get to read the others, but I will say this; I got divorced at the age of 28, I had an affair, I left my husband; so we are the same yet different, but I can assure you this: the feelings of failure, of loss, and of confusion are the same whether you are left or you are the one leaving. I know how you feel.

  2. I just wanted to say that you went through exactly what I am going through. I'm 30. Catholic (I also converted for him). Found out my husband was cheating. Was willing to forgive and move-on. I tried for two months while he still talked to her. I was still willing to forgive but he didn't want to try or give me a chance. Now divorcing and trying to sell our house. Your blog is the first that so closely match my situation. Thank you for blogging.

  3. i stumbled onto your blog from divorcedbefore30. i'm in the first steps of preparing for my own separation and like you, i am the reluctant party. your blog is giving me hope that i can start over, also at 28. maybe one day i'll find happiness again, but right now i've hit such rock bottom that the only way is up. thanks for your blog -- i'm reading your entries from the beginning...