Online dating has been a hot topic lately.
I have friends that found their spouse on match.com, a friend who just enrolled there and another whose on eHarmony. I read blogged adventures detailing the people they've met and the tales along the way.
I love hearing about their adventures.
But I don't think it is for me. At least not right now.
I don't think I am above it. Its just not for me right now. For several reasons.
Right now I just don't want a relationship that bad to take the time to review matches, read profiles and go on dates.
I also don't want to feel as though I forced something.
I don't want to start something somewhere I don't plan to be.
If it happens organically I am all for it.
But I am not going for it.
And there is B.
I know that having him in my life keeps me from having open eyes.
Even if I can't have more with him now, even if we are just to be friends. I don't have a chance to be lonely because he's there, regardless of if its not as much as I want it to be. It keeps me from moving on. Because there is still a possibility.
I know it.
He knows it.