This darn list. Its hard. Hard to work through when you are busy living life. But then...it all starts coming together.
So I have a major guilt complex. Major.
Because of this I was never going to be able to move home unless I had a job. I needed a job so that I could pay my bills. The bills I am held to with MX and those and that I will have when I move. The costs of living my life, the lifestyle I have become accustomed to over the years. The obligations I have.
Those things all added up to one requirement. I needed a J-O-B. (#21)
I was offered a position that was neither what I set out looking for or what I planned to do. But it gets me home.
It gets me back to where I wanted to be.
And now, maybe...just maybe...there is another offer that will be made. Maybe.
I want it to be. Its ideal.
I just don't feel like its going to work for me. I feel as though its too good.
That I don't deserve it.
But last weekend, when everything started falling into place my family swept in and helped me move (#9). So as of July 17th I will be there full time.
I will be home.
And to thank my family for their kindness...I bought them all supper (#26).
Maybe, just maybe, I will be able to start living the life I want.