Just Need, Darn It Do It

Despite overwhelming feedback I just haven't done it yet. I can't seem to bring myself to unfriend.

I don't know why. These people mean next to nothing to me.

Today I saw something that actually made my stomach do flips. It wasn't pictures, they don't bother me.

It was a mutual friend combining her last name with his. That has MX written all over it.

He always does it.

The fantasy football team we had for years...it was a combo of my his first name and my last. Prior to that it was his first name with his college girlfriends first name combined together...now its her last name combined with his last name.

I admit it. It made me nauseous.

For a second.

And then I remembered that I deserve better. That he threw us away and she can have, what I am sure she believes is original, a cheesy nickname.

The Alarm

Alarm goes off. I think "time to get up and workout."

But what I do is roll over and go back to sleep.

Workout fail.

Working Out

I have fallen off the workout wagon in a major way. Major.

I was dedicated, fell off, got back on and have now found myself majorly sidelined.

So today I bought myself new workout pants. Why would someone who isn't working out buy new workout pants? Because I hope it motivates me to get off my tush and back to working out!

I also hope it means that I find a nice used treadmill soon so that I can run in the winter!

Needs

I need:

• the house to sell
• the wait to be over
• the drama to go away

Should I Un-Friend?

FB is an interesting place. Its there that I routinely see pictures of MX with her. Pictures posted by our friends that are now their friends.

Pictures of him doing things with her that he never would have done with me and claimed to not enjoy.

So it has me thinking...

As I continue to do things to separate my life now from MX, is it time to un-friend the former couple friends? They are, for all intents and purposes, his friends. I haven't heard anything from any of them. I am not sure if we would speak if I ran into them. I don't know what they have been told.

Do I do it? Or do I leave the connection available?

There really should be a divorce handbook on these things!

Money

With MX everything was joint. Joint checking, savings, credit cards etc. Our 401k contributions were the same as were our Roths.

When I transitioned to having my own accounts I started appreciating the fact that I could spend money on what I wanted because well, I wanted to. I didn't have to stop and think about how it impacted someone else or what they would think of the purchase.

But today when I got my first paycheck under single claiming 1 exemption versus married with 1 exemption...and it was $117 less than normal...

I wished I had married filing status again.

I want that $3k back. (26 paychecks in a year)

But then I would be with someone who didn't value me as a person, who cared so little he walked out on our marriage.

Never mind, I am okay with losing the $3k.

Timing

Sometimes timing is everything. Ours is apparently horrendous...

Maybe it will work its way out.

Name Change

I remember when I changed my name after we were married...While I never thought my married name sounded good with my first name I couldn't wait to be Mrs.

I took an extra day after the honeymoon, cut my hair (because that is what you do when you first get married) and went about the name change process.

I had done all of my research and knew where to start.

People congratulated me.

Fast forward four years I have this name change process down pat.

But a tip to the Social Security office workers, Drivers License Bureau workers, credit card company call service workers and the associates at my bank...

When I say I need to change my name don't ASSume it was due to marriage and congratulate me.

Note to self; should you go down the marital path again...NO CHANGING OF THE NAME.

Hello, Heard of Divorce?

Dear Google,

Not being able to change my main email account on my Google account, blogger, reader, iGoogle etc...

SUCKS.

Its dumb. My old email address had MX's name. I want my name back. I am moving forward Everyone else is letting me; my credit cards don't ask for proof of identity to change my name, the bank took 24 hours to do so, my company took 48...but Google...you won't let it happen.

I have moved on. So should you!

Sincerely,

StartingOver@28