Weird

Its weird when I tell people that I have a court date and they say "Congratulations."

Its weird that people ask if I am excited.

Its weird that when I went out for a 30th birthday party and started a tab I realized it was probably the last time I would have a tab under my married name.

Its just weird.

I still don't understand how this is my life. Or how I got here.

I am not sad exactly; I have moved past those feelings. I guess in some ways the situation is surreal.

Friends have offered to go with me on Tuesday but its probably best to go on my own. I know that there will be tears. Its still the death of my marriage. I just don't want to let him see me cry. Not again.