I feel like things are falling into place yet I can't talk about them and that makes it seem like it isn't real.

Its an added stress that has me on edge.

I feel like I am so close.

I feel like its never going to happen.

It just doesn't feel real.

Its feels far away.

Like I have dreamt the reality that I can't have. But I will. Its getting closer.

I just want it to be here.

I want my future.