Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Keeping up the Positive

MS2BX came over tonight to mow. I didn't know he was coming.

Rather that stew and fret about the fact he was outside I did something way more productive; I laced up my sneakers and went for a run. It wasn't a very good run as I haven't been very consistent. Plus there was the immense amount of fun I had over the 4th. But it was a run.

Going for a run is a positive thing. Its good for me not only physically but mentally as well. It also signals that I am getting stronger. Before this past weekend I would have hid somewhere in the house and cried.

But I am not going to do that anymore. I am going to focus on all the things I can do now.

It doesn't mean that I love him any less or that it doesn't still hurt and in someways if I could change everything I would...but it does mean that I have accepted it.

I know my life has changed.

What lies ahead is what I can make of it.

I will never again be in a relationship that doesn't love all parts of me; the girl from the acreage who is fine with cleaning stalls or meeting multi million dollar quotas. You can't compartmentalize yourself forever and I won't do it again.


  1. These moments are so wonderful. Enjoy, my dear, enjoy.

  2. The farm girl and the professional woman are one in the same. If someone can't accept you for who you are, they don't deserve you. You know that now.