I am happy.
I have fun. I go where I want when I want.
Vegas before Thanksgiving? Sure! Keno at breakfast? Picking a slot machine to play while eating your breadsticks based on the size of its ledge (for easier eating of course) - normal!
Spending time with my family at the holiday. Not having to be anywhere else or worry about anyone else...amazing. A truly stress free holiday.
It doesn't make anything that happened less painful or less real. But maybe everyone was right. It happened for a reason. Maybe it is better that it happened now and not when we were older. He wasn't the person I thought he was and certainly wasn't the man I loved.
I deserve better than that.
Right now, in this moment, I am happy.