The update on B
Cold turkey may not work.
I thought I was ready and now I am not so sure.
But dividing lines. Clear boundaries. An unwillingness to cross.
Guidelines.
So while we cannot cross lines we once did we will gladly hold back to save the friendship that means the most. To both of us.
The Puppy
After many months of silence, largely due to the fact I never responded to his last few texts guess who I heard from?
The puppy.
There is still nothing there for me.
But I admire the perseverance.
Showing posts with label Habits. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Habits. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
False Start. Mulligan. Throw the Penalty Flag.
Insert sports analogy here.
I'm trying to make a new habit.
It is necessary.
It is what is best. For both of us. Whether we want it to be or not.
But I wasn't counting on the news coming today. As one of few that knew it was coming sooner rather than later I couldn't sit back and not tell him I was thinking of him.
I know there will always be things that happen. There will always be something.
But I can't be cold-hearted this soon. I had to reach out.
And I reserve this right if there is a loss of anyone, or his furry best friend, that he holds dear.
Because in the end, we will always be friends. Even if right now what we need is silence.
So I am starting over. Again.
14 days to make a habit.
There will be letters written that are never sent.
BBM's to a friend willing to stand in as it was our go to communication tool .
But one thing it isn't...it isn't easy.
I appreciate your support more than you know.
I'm trying to make a new habit.
It is necessary.
It is what is best. For both of us. Whether we want it to be or not.
But I wasn't counting on the news coming today. As one of few that knew it was coming sooner rather than later I couldn't sit back and not tell him I was thinking of him.
I know there will always be things that happen. There will always be something.
But I can't be cold-hearted this soon. I had to reach out.
And I reserve this right if there is a loss of anyone, or his furry best friend, that he holds dear.
Because in the end, we will always be friends. Even if right now what we need is silence.
So I am starting over. Again.
14 days to make a habit.
There will be letters written that are never sent.
BBM's to a friend willing to stand in as it was our go to communication tool .
But one thing it isn't...it isn't easy.
I appreciate your support more than you know.
Habits
Its supposed to take 14 days to make a habit and I have 13 days to go.
They may be the longest 13 days of my life.
The habit is silence.
Silence between me and him.
It will be better for both of us.
We have tried.
We have failed.
I have failed more.
I've taught him that I will do this and then come back, missing him.
But this time I am not coming back.
But I am missing him.
I am done.
It is what needs done. For both of us.
Even if it hurts. Even if it feels like something is missing.
It's a new habit. The habit of silence.
They may be the longest 13 days of my life.
The habit is silence.
Silence between me and him.
It will be better for both of us.
We have tried.
We have failed.
I have failed more.
I've taught him that I will do this and then come back, missing him.
But this time I am not coming back.
But I am missing him.
I am done.
It is what needs done. For both of us.
Even if it hurts. Even if it feels like something is missing.
It's a new habit. The habit of silence.
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