Dear Grammy's

Itunes should love you.

Because of you Grammy's, I have bought a lot of music this evening.

Sincerely,

StartingOver@28

Up in the Air

I went to see Clooney's latest film, Up in the Air, today.

It was quintessential Clooney. Lots of self deprecating humor.

It was incredibly depressing.

I LOVED it.

Maybe because I travel a lot? Maybe because I am apprehensive about being in a relationship again. Maybe because I don't seem to make smart decisions when it comes to guys...

Maybe because his desire to remain free of attachments resonates with this new me.

Maybe because I was once the overeager, life will go exactly my way because I planned it that way, 23 year old who tries to revolutionize their business practices.

But this exchange? It might just be one of the best in recent history.

Natalie Keener: Hungry much?
Ryan Bingham: Our business expense allots forty dollars each for dinner. I plan on grabbing as many miles as I can.
Natalie Keener: Okay, you got to fill me in on the miles thing. What is that about? You're talking about, like, frequent flyer miles?
Ryan Bingham: You really want to know?
Natalie Keener: I'm dying to know.
Ryan Bingham: I don't spend a nickel, if I can help it, unless it somehow profits my mileage account.
Natalie Keener: So, what are you saving up for? Hawaii? South of France?
Ryan Bingham: It's not like that. The miles are the goal.
Natalie Keener: That's it? You're saving just to save?
Ryan Bingham: Let's just say that I have a number in mind and I haven't hit it yet.
Natalie Keener: That's a little abstract. What's the target?
Ryan Bingham: I'd rather not...
Natalie Keener: Is it a secret target?
Ryan Bingham: It's ten million miles.
Natalie Keener: Okay. Isn't ten million just a number?
Ryan Bingham: Pi's just a number.
Natalie Keener: Well, we all need a hobby. No, I- I- I don't mean to belittle your collection. I get it. It sounds cool.
Ryan Bingham: I'd be the seventh person to do it. More people have walked on the moon. Natalie Keener: Do they throw you a parade?
Ryan Bingham: You get lifetime executive status. You get to meet the chief pilot, Maynard Finch.
Natalie Keener: Wow.
Ryan Bingham: And they put your name on the side of a plane.
Natalie Keener: Men get such hardons from putting their names on things. You guys don't grow up. It's like you need to pee on everything.


Seriously. Such a boy thing to have a desire to pee on everything. Even if they choose not to go...they still want you to not do the things you have talked about.

F that.

Another Friday

A couple weeks ago I told you about the highlight of my Friday.

This week the highlight...

Buying a 40lb bag of dog food. Am I an exciting single chic or what?

So then I started thinking. Dangerous, right?

When I go to Petsmart why do I feel compelled to donate to their homeless pets fund?

Every. Single. Time.

I asked my sister about this and we came to the conclusion that its because 1. we love animals and 2. they are defenseless.

I don't give money to homeless people because they have a choice.

They can work.

I am totally jaded by those Dateline specials that expose people; educated, mentally stable people, who choose to not work but rather beg and not pay taxes. Because of them it keeps me from giving individuals money on the street.

I am much more inclined to provide food, warm clothing or blankets through various charitable organizations like Harvesters.

But animals? There is no one to help them unless we do.

I guess that is my soap box for the day. Do you give money to homeless people on the street? Or try and support them, like me, through specific charities?

Mind Racing

Me. Always wanted to ask me a question but not wanted to let me know who it was that asked? Go here and see what I say.

Working Out. Still loving my treadmill. Even last night when I didn't sleep well. I got up this a.m. and did a run/walk combo. Monday starts training. Training again for a 5k. Starting over.

Why do I always feel like I am starting over?

Boys. And B. So much there. Why can we talk about everything, absolutely everything, except for that one topic?

I think about you all the time.

I love talking to you.

I have lots of feelings for you.

Don't think like that.

Are you just there enough to keep me from moving on?

Concerts. In the last 2 days I have got tickets to Tim McGraw with Lady Antebellum, Rascal Flatts with my favorite Darius Rucker and Black Eyed Peas. I am currently on the prowl for tickets to the one and only Garth Brooks. Oh and if I can get reasonable Eric Clapton tickets I am in for that too. Oh and John Mayer? Sign me up.

I may have a problem. Apparently I need a part time job to support my concert habit.

What I Want Now

My birthday is rapidly approaching and I am thinking about purchasing two gifts for myself.

Because I need them.

Okay, maybe I want them.


First...Ray Ban Aviators.







Nothing says summer like these bad boys.

Second...new True Religion jeans.



Because they make my tush look so much better. Maybe not as good as above...but better.
Trust me.
And the ones I have...they are dying a painful, painful death.

I'm In Love

With my new treadmill.

Sole F63

I love you.

Now my dear Sole F63...if you can suddenly become 50 lbs lighter when MX comes over next so that its easier to move you I would love you even more!

K. Thanks. Bye.

25 Random Things

Before the revelation of the affair I succumbed to the FB craze and had a "note" with my 25 Random Things. Several of them had to do with MX so I immediately deleted the note as well as all the pictures of us.

But I miss those 25 Random Things. So since it would probably weird to suddenly add them to FB I thought I would do it here.

1. My parents named both myself and my sister so that it would "sound good over a loud speaker." Swear. We grew up showing horses so this was of vital importance.
2. A picture of me hung in the American Quarter Horse Museum in Amarillo, TX for 17 years.
3. I broke my arm when I was 3 years old because I fell off my 3 foot tall pony as he ducked under a gate. I fell into soft sand...but didn't cry until the doctors said they were going to have to cut off my shirt. It was my favorite.
4. I graduated college in 3 years. This is one of the biggest regrets of my life. I should have slowed down and enjoyed another year. But I was in a hurry and really poor so I had to get moving.
5. I am a meat & potatoes girl. I like my steak, preferably a filet, medium rare. I don't understand if you don't eat your steak medium rare. In fact, I probably think you are weird.
6. I think Bud Light (or Select) is the only alcohol that needs to exist.
7. Milk is the one thing I couldn't live without.
8. I love Kiefer Sutherland. I think he is the most attractive man in Hollywood. I love that he isn't perfect. My next dog will be named Bauer for his 24 character.
9. I once met Tanya Tucker in a bar. I was 12.
10. I have an incredible memory. Sometimes this is good; if you want to know what you wore on a particular day...I am your girl. But sometimes its bad; if you make me angry or hurt someone I love I will always remember and its hard for me to get past.
11. I believe that hard work will get you what you want. I wanted a college education. I had to pay for it. So I worked 4 jobs, while going to school full time, being an officer in my sorority, a Student Ambassador, and Fall & Summer Orientation Leader. I try to apply this level of dedication to everything.
12. If I could do one thing for the rest of my life I would show horses. I miss it so much and can't wait to get back to it.
13. I love to cook. But most of the time I end up making grilled cheese, pizza or a pbj.
14. I really want to have my own business. I just haven't figure out what it is just yet.
15. I'm obsessed with personal finance. I love it. But it stresses me out. I wonder if I have saved enough, will have enough...
16. I can't wait to move home and have a new house to decorate and settle into. As horrendous as the last year has been, I am so excited for the next chapter. Something good has to come out of this.
17. My animals are my kids. I can't imagine life without them. They brighten each and every day. I have already warned my sister that if I move to the country she will have to keep an eye on how many animals I have because I have such a bleeding heart for them. I can't stand to see an animal suffer.
18. I want to travel to Italy, Greece, Turks & Cacaos and Australia.
19. In the US I want to go to Montana, Wyoming and the Badlands.
20. At 5 feet 2 inches I am the tallest female in my family.
21. My sister is my hero. M is like a sister and therefore my other hero. They are both amazing. So strong and determined.
22. I have always thought I would die young. I don't know why.
23. My two favorite kinds of music are country and hip hop.
24. I went to kindergarten in a one room school house.
25. I am quite confident that me and my oldest friend, will always be friends. Even though I moved when I was 12 she always made sure we stayed in contact. Now that we are older and with email & FB its just that much easier and it turns out...we still like each other!